I Turned The Blessing into My Curse

Sometimes the very blessing God gives us becomes the idol that blocks us from Him. In this vulnerable episode of This Feels Holy, I share how God convicted me to let go of TikTok Shop—even when it didn’t make financial sense. I explore the slippery slope from blessing to idol, the pull of self-resource over divine provision, and the painful beauty of obedience.

This message is for anyone struggling to surrender control, let go of distractions, or discern the difference between God’s voice and your own desires. Let’s talk about conviction, identity, and how to avoid turning gifts into gods.

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🎬 Chapters:

00:00 – When Blessings Become Idols
 01:02 – Welcome to Miami + Backstory
 02:17 – The Spiritual Battle of Discernment
 03:10 – God Told Me to Leave TikTok Shop
 04:45 – Disobedience and Conviction Begin
 06:00 – I Was Slipping Back Into Old Habits
 07:05 – The Line Between Provision and Idol
 08:17 – God Speaks Through Isaiah 44
 10:10 – Realizing I Made TikTok My God
 11:23 – The Subtle Shift from Gift to Identity
 12:38 – Waiting for God’s Provision, Not My Hustle
 14:10 – When Gifting Becomes Your God
 16:02 – The Purpose of Discipleship Over Monetization
 17:59 – Recognizing and Using Your True Gifts
 20:12 – Stewardship: Multiply What God Gave You
 21:33 – Practical Check-In: Have You Made an Idol?
 23:15 – The Repentance Process I Use
 24:50 – The Blessing That Distracts You
 26:03 – Cut Off What Opens the Wrong Door
 27:00 – God Said TikTok Must Go
 28:03 – Provision Follows Obedience (Coming Soon)
 29:15 – You Don’t Need to Have It All Figured Out
 30:18 – I’m Learning to Wait on God
 31:08 – Final Reflections and Laughs